Almost a grown up

I’ve posted about graduating this semester several times…but it’s sooooo close. One month to go before I have to enter the real world.

How crazy is that?? No more homework or tests or group projects with people who don’t care. I go from excited to nervous to just plain scared almost every day. I can’t believe that I am almost done. I remember my first day at Auburn like it was yesterday and I have loved every minute since, but I am excited to start a new chapter.

Graduation makes you feel old though, right? Maybe I’m the only one, but it just seems like time is passing a lot quicker than it used to. I remember thinking I would never get out of middle school, then thinking high school was passing too quickly, only to realize that now college flew by.

It’s a lot of pressure to have to start thinking where I want to be in five years, and making choices that are going to get me there.

Don’t get me wrong, I am looking forward to having a big girl job and all that comes with growing up, but part of me is going to miss having summers off and being able to relax for a whole month during Christmas with nothing to do but hang out with friends.

I am realizing that I need to rely on God more than I have before.

It’s easy to say that you rely on Him when you know what your future holds or when things are going exactly how you planned, which has been the majority of my life. Sure, there were a few bumps in the road and obstacles that I didn’t quite foresee and where I prayed a little more and worshipped a little harder. But there has never been a real consistency in the amount of time I spend with God.

I have always been comfortable in my routine. I went to the same school for 12 years and then was accepted to the only college I wanted to go to with a few friends from high school. I would make sure to spend a little extra time with God when a big test was coming up or something like that, but I never really had to rely solely on my faith because I knew exactly what I was going to do next.

In Hebrews 11:1 it says, “Faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen.”

That is a very easy definition to live by when you know what your future holds. It’s a lot harder when your whole world is about to change.

To have faith in all circumstances is something my parents have taught me my whole life, but I am just now starting to realize how difficult that can be sometimes.

By Caitlin


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